Oh hey loyal fans. Welcome back.

Why do I want to start a blog? (again)

Well, it has been on the to-do list for a long time now.  I had one when I lived in Haiti and I really miss the ritual of getting thoughts out into the world. Remember Kaiti in Haiti? Ah yes, a classic. Apparently I love a good rhyming blog name.

A few things have been happening lately that make me want to write. Well, more than a few. I’ll get into those more once I start click clacking away…

Some of my inspiration comes from what I’ve been reading lately: Love Warrior by Glennon Melton Doyle. OMG I saw her at the airport the other day and was  too nervous to do anything other than stalk her around the terminal. Mission accomplished. I mean, her book is life changing, shattering and beautiful. It made me want to be as self-aware and human-aware as Glennon is.

I’m also inspired to write because of my life coach, Dushka. More on her later because she is freaking amazeballs and helped me realize that I’m amazeballs too. I have a lot to say! I have a lot to share! I have thoughts that are worth reading and most of all, I need to organize my thoughts. Wrestle with them, grapple with them and own them.

Why is writing different than talking or thinking? I guess thoughts somehow become more concrete, more solid, more eloquent on paper. Glennon put it well (of course) in an interview she gave where she said writing is like being a detective. All day long you have no idea how you feel or why you feel, you are clueless! And then when you get the chance to write it all down, you start seeing the clues and patterns. All of a sudden, things start making sense.

And finally, I want to write because, for a long time I have felt not myself  (whatever that means). I think back to the 23-year old Kaitlyn, and think, “I like her. People liked her.”

Yet, I wonder if when I am 40 I will look back and long for my 30-year old self. Goodness, I hope not. I think writing might help me prevent that from happening. Maybe it sounds cliche, but I am writing  to my find myself.

So there’s all these reasons for me to write. And if that wasn’t enough, the universe seems to keep at it. At dinner the other night, a friend said that in your 30’s you know just enough to be fearful. And later, someone asked what would you do if you could do anything for a career. My response — become a blogger, and in my head I thought, so I can overcome that fear of my 30s.

So, here I go…